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On Ending Gracefully
Dec. 31st, 2015 09:01 amHi, folks. I think it's time to call it: I'm not really using livejournal/dreamwidth much these days.
This is bittersweet, because lj was the first place online where I found a home. I got my journal in 2002, so it's been almost 15 years. I've made friends here, heard great stories, figured out a lot about myself and the world. But I haven't made an entry in almost four months, and that was just to wish my wife a happy birthday.
I think there are a few reasons for my absence. One is that I've been really enjoying tumblr (http://things-that-are-great.tumblr.com/). I'm taking pride in curating a positivity blog, a place where people can enjoy spending time. I'm also finding it incredibly helpful for self-care on rough days.
Because the other reason I'm not here: I think doing therapy full-time is actually using most of my writing brain. I spend up to eight hours every day thinking hard about feelings, motivations, change, ongoing story, and how to put those things into words that will communicate the ideas most clearly and empathetically. When I get home, I'm tired. My wordcount is way down for writing fiction, and while I do keep writing it, it's so much slower than it used to be. I think I just don't have many words left to introspect and report here. (It's worth noting that I've been planning to make this entry for months, but only doing it now when I've been on vacation for five days.)
So I'm not journalling, and I don't want to just gradually dwindle and disappear. I want to say a proper goodbye. This is not to say that I'm not going to be reading other people's journals, because I really enjoy those. (Though if something happens that you really want to be SURE I know about, please feel free to tweet at me (gaudiorrr) or email! And Tumblr and Twitter will be an excellent way to keep track of what I'm up to) But I think that there may be a long time before I make another entry, and I wanted to say thank you all, so much, for the years I've spent here.
Thank you. This has been a wonderful place to be.
Take care,
R
This is bittersweet, because lj was the first place online where I found a home. I got my journal in 2002, so it's been almost 15 years. I've made friends here, heard great stories, figured out a lot about myself and the world. But I haven't made an entry in almost four months, and that was just to wish my wife a happy birthday.
I think there are a few reasons for my absence. One is that I've been really enjoying tumblr (http://things-that-are-great.tumblr.com/). I'm taking pride in curating a positivity blog, a place where people can enjoy spending time. I'm also finding it incredibly helpful for self-care on rough days.
Because the other reason I'm not here: I think doing therapy full-time is actually using most of my writing brain. I spend up to eight hours every day thinking hard about feelings, motivations, change, ongoing story, and how to put those things into words that will communicate the ideas most clearly and empathetically. When I get home, I'm tired. My wordcount is way down for writing fiction, and while I do keep writing it, it's so much slower than it used to be. I think I just don't have many words left to introspect and report here. (It's worth noting that I've been planning to make this entry for months, but only doing it now when I've been on vacation for five days.)
So I'm not journalling, and I don't want to just gradually dwindle and disappear. I want to say a proper goodbye. This is not to say that I'm not going to be reading other people's journals, because I really enjoy those. (Though if something happens that you really want to be SURE I know about, please feel free to tweet at me (gaudiorrr) or email! And Tumblr and Twitter will be an excellent way to keep track of what I'm up to) But I think that there may be a long time before I make another entry, and I wanted to say thank you all, so much, for the years I've spent here.
Thank you. This has been a wonderful place to be.
Take care,
R
